Jan 7
This will be the hardest post I ever write……..I cry as I type…….We have gotten bad news once again. The marrow shows 14% monosomy 7 lineage(myeloid),… and lymphoid lineage, all is thought to be malignant by the pathologist. I’m not sure how to say this to everyone. This has not gotten better if anything has gotten worse. Once again chemo has failed to bring remission and this goal of remission has only yet gotten further away. I feel deeply saddened to tell anyone who cares that I believe we have finally came down that road we didn’t want to. That road that has no detour, no merge, no left turn, no right turn, no T intersection. Its a dead end tunnel, no way to sneak out, the sides and the end are blocked (we think). I did one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life tonight. I took my daughter into her room as she was crying jealously of her brother. I sat her on my lap and had one of those talks no one is supposed to ever have to have. That I’ll keep private, but I’m sure you all have good imaginations. What do I say. Well I know the make a wish people are coming this week and I will be asking for an emergency wish. I also know that we will be going to PA soon so Conner can run some jobsites. We once again are looking for no outside opinions other than maybe family…….We will live with it!!! I love my son, he is quite the amazing boy!!!!!
Daddy
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I have a child with cancer also. This was so hard for me to read today. it brought me to tears.
We all know how much you love your son. Having a kid with cancer is unbearable . No one should have to go through it. there is nothing anyone can say to ease your pain on this, i know. talking with my husband is the only thing that makes me feel better….talking until i have nothing left to say….getting it off my chest. i pray for your strength and ability to get through this mess.
You and Karrie and the kids remain in our thoughts and prayers everyday
Aaron and Karrie…you are in our thoughts and prayers constantly. There is nothing we can say to make any of this any better for you or your family. I think you have done an amazing job dealing with the hardest thing that, I can only imagine, parents should NEVER go through. We will continue to pray, pray, pray and pray some more. I bet Conner will do an excellent job at supervising Daddy’s jobsites! I know he will have a great time! Do not hesitate to let us know if we can do anything at all for you.
–Amber Leonard and family
There is nothing I can say to ease your pain. No one will ever understand and the question will always be why. You and Karrie and the kids remain in our thoughts and prayers everyday.
Love you guys
Your new post brought tears to my eyes! We can’t imagine what you must be going through. We will continue to pray for strength for your family and a miracle!!!
Heartbreaking news… you all are in our thoughts and prayers. We are praying for all four of you… may God give you the peace that passes all understanding.
We’ll still be praying for a miracle. Best wishes to you all. Stay Strong.
The best thing I can offer you is our continual, fervent prayers. God is forever faithful and He will not forsake you or leave you, Karrie, Conner or Taylor. His ways are not our ways and we can’t understand why these horrible things happen. But I do know that no matter what God Loves you and He adores Conner. Conner is His child, just as he is yours.
However, there is never a reason that could be given that would justify the suffering of our children.
God’s word tells us that….”tears are a lanuage that God understands.” He sees your tears and He cares….. He loves You and He is there with you.
If there is anything….. I MEAN ANYTHING that we can do, other than pray, PLEASE contact us.
God, I ask that you touch Conner and completely heal his little body. You designed him in his mother’s womb and you formed Him. We know that you can and will heal him. Your ways are sovereign and perfect. Comfort the Stell family and give them the strength that is needed for this moment. Wrap your loving arms around all of them and assure them of your love and devotion for them. Your son suffered as well and it is by that suffering that we ask you to please touch this precious little boy.
Amen!
One year ago, I hadn’t even met Conner. I hadn’t taken the time to get home to Iowa when they were there…just living my life with blinders on. Then Conner got sick and although I didn’t know him, I’ve loved his daddy since 1980 and it was unfathomable. Then I met Conner this past summer and he changed my life. Conner reminds me SO much of his daddy and yet has this outlook like no one I’ve ever met. His thirst for life was just born in him and nothing he’s gone through has changed it. He’s truly an amazing kid. And I have been truly impressed with Karrie’s faith and the hope she exudes every day. And my aunt…who would stop their lives to help their child like she has? My world has been expanded and I think about my family much more than I ever have. I am proud of my family because they are strong and they are fighters. And yet I’m in pain, saddened that they have to be this strong. I love you guys. You are in my heart and prayers every day.
Karrie, Aaron, and family,
I’ve only met you briefly either at clinic or on the 5th floor. Karrie and I have spoken a few times. But I have been praying for Conner and for you all. I will continue to do so. I am so very sorry that you have received the news you so dreaded. I cannot imagine all that you are feeling but please know that I am praying. Our Father who loves you with an everlasting love is still there. He is still on the throne and He loves Conner so very very much. May you all feel that love each and every day of your lives.
With much care,
Kristin (Brian’s mom from clinic)